“There will come a day when you will realise what you actually want. Your search will end, it will reach its culmination and that would be the day you probably would stop reading and writing. Whatever you write thereafter will be a complete thought. Your words will want for nothing. You will have achieved what your soul is so desperately looking for in the written word,” so saying, he smiled enigmatically.
“But, I don’t think I am looking for anything in particular. I read because I love to and I write only when I have things to say. Yes, sometimes, I have incomplete thoughts that might need processing. Sometimes, I write things that are raw. I write of emotions, of people, of love, of loss. I write of things that are human. I read things that I find fun or that stir me. I have never thought of reading as a channel to get somewhere, it has never been purpose oriented, merely a means of getting to know stuff,” I riposted.
“Ah! But you are young still, you will get there, eventually,” he reiterated.
What is it about thinking individuals that ruffles our set opinions so? It isn’t as if I change my thought process on every word of a book or a firmly stated opinion but both mediums compel me to re-analyse my approach. Sometimes I defer to the books or educated opinions thrown at me, at others I stick with whatever wisdom I have acquired over the years.
I maintain that I don’t read with a purpose in mind. I am neither spiritual nor religious enough to seek answers in mythological text, I am not condemning them or denying their significance, it’s just that they don’t work for me as well as a fictional work with deep rooted meaning does. I would rather read a Shantaram or To kill a mockingbird or Rumi, even for that matter a Brida, to get perspective on life, than to look for solutions in the Bhagwad Gita. I have read that too but probably I did not get it much.
I started writing as a catharsis for my broken spirit. I never felt that my pieces had or have any literary merit. I write because, there comes a time in each of our lives when we have things to say that we can’t express freely, even to the closest of our friends or family. Some keep it all bottled up or lock it all up in the deepest recesses of their minds, some choose art, music, cooking, travelling, gardening, keeping pets, chatting or even socialising to keep that inner voice down. To each his or her own.
I Choose to Write. I can’t, at times, express what I am going through even with my writings, for fear of being judged. I still haven’t learnt how to fictionalize my accounts so that I am finally able to pour my heart out without anyone finding out the trials I am going through. I, forever, dread the query, who is it you have written about in this piece?
Still, I choose to write to attain temporary relief, a sense of calm from my ever accumulating thoughts. I may stop writing if by some miracle I can stop thinking of mundane, everyday things. I am an ordinary being, a human with trappings like love, desires, wishes, hopes, friendships & relationships. I don’t see myself graduating to the bigger questions of life and existence any time soon.
May be, I am missing an essential ingredient. It is probable that I am lost. I may not conform to many things that this world lays down but I am ME. I will own up to my mistakes, I am the one who would take lessons from them. I might repeat some of them but I am content. My energy is my own. I regret nothing. Even bad decisions and failures were necessary. They probably were the most important things in my life when they happened.
I am here to lead a simple, uncomplicated, knowledge – centric life and I feel that I am on my way pretty much the way I wanted to be. I love to wear my heart on my sleeve and won’t apologise for being the way I am.
Beautiful piece of writing….as always
Always wear your heart in your sleeve…coz we must do things which gives solace to ourselves.As much as your switch to writing. Friend you excel in it…… continue it forever and ever
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Thank you shweta ЁЯШШЁЯШШ
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Amazing…so true…good my friend
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Thank you PriЁЯШШ
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Never ever change yourself for anyone because people love you for what you are. And I completely agree that any form of artistic things give us peace. Writing, indeed is one of them. We are all evolving and I am glad we both are in each otherтАЩs lives to help each other to grow without the fear of being judgedЁЯШШ love you to the moon and back ЁЯМЩ
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Love you neha.. ЁЯШШ You are truly a blessing.. There is nothing now that you don’t know and I am sooooooooooooooo fortunate that I have a person who doesn’t judge me on anything I do or go through..
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рджреИрдирд┐рдиреНрджрд┐рди рдореЗрдВ рдЬреЛ рднреА рдШрдЯрдирд╛рдпреЗ рд╣рдорд╛рд░реЗ рд╕рд╛рде рдШрдЯрддреА рд╣реИрдВ, рдпрд╛ рд╣рдо рджреЗрдЦрддреЗ рд╣реИрдВ ред рдЗрдиреНрд╣реА рдШрдЯрдирд╛рдУ рд╕реЗ рдпрджрд┐ рд╣рдо рдХрд┐рд╕реА рднреА рд░реВрдк рд╕реЗ рд╕реНрдкрдВрджрд┐рдд рд╣реЛрддреЗ рд╣реИ ред рддрднреА рдЗрди рдШрдЯрдирд╛рдУ рд╕реЗ рд╕рдВрдмрдВрдзрд┐рдд рд╡рд┐рдЪрд╛рд░реЛрдВ рдХрд╛ рдЬрдиреНрдо рд╣реЛрддрд╛ рд╣реИ ред рд╡рд┐рдЪрд╛рд░ рдЙрддреНрдкрдиреНрди рд╣реЛрддрд╛ рд╣реИ рдлрд┐рд░ рд╢реБрд░реВ рд╣реЛрддреА рд╣реИ рд╡рд┐рдЪрд╛рд░реЛ рдХреА рд╕рддрдд рдЖрднрд╛рд╕реА рдкреНрд░рдХреНрд░рд┐рдпрд╛ рдЬреЛ рддрдм рддрдХ рдЪрд▓рддреА рд░рд╣рддреА рд╣реИ, рдЬрдм рддрдХ рдШрдЯрдирд╛ рд╕реЗ рд╕рдВрдмрдВрдзрд┐рдд рдкреВрд░реНрдг рдЬрд╡рд╛рдм рд╣рдорд╛рд░реЗ рдордирд╛рдиреБрд╕рд╛рд░ рдкреНрд░рд╛рдкреНрдд рдирд╣реА рд╣реЛ рдЬрд╛рддрд╛ ред рдФрд░ рдЪрдВрдЪрд▓ рдорди рдХрднреА рднреА рд╕рдВрддреБрд╖реНрдЯ рдирд╣реА рд╣реЛрддрд╛ редрдЗрд╕рд▓рд┐рдпреЗ рд╡рд┐рдЪрд╛рд░реЛ рдХреА рдпрд╣ рд╕рддрдд рд╢реНрд░рдВрдЦрд▓рд╛ рдЙрддреНрдкрдиреНрди рд╣реЛ рдЬрд╛рдирд╛ рддреЛ рдЖрд╕рд╛рди рд╣реЛрддрд╛ рд╣реИ, рдкрд░рдиреНрддреБ рдЗрдирдХрд╛ рдЕрдВрдд рд╣рдорд╛рд░реЗ рд╣рд╛рде рдореЗрдВ рдирд╣реА рд╣реЛрддрд╛ ред рдлрд▓рд╕реНрд╡рд░реВрдк рд╣рдо рдХрднреА рдбрд░рддреЗ рд╣реИ, рджреБрдЦреА рд╣реЛрддреЗ рд╣реИ рдпрд╛ рдЕрдиреНрдп рдкреНрд░рдХрд╛рд░ рдХреЗ рдмрджрд▓рд╛рд╡ рдЬреАрд╡рди рдореЗрдВ рдорд╣рд╕реВрд╕ рдХрд░рдиреЗ рд▓рдЧрддреЗ рд╣реИ ред
рдЬрдм рд╣рдорд╛рд░реЗ рд╡рд┐рдЪрд╛рд░ рдЕрднрд┐рд╡реНрдпрдХреНрддрд┐ рдкрд╛рдиреЗ рд▓рдЧрддреЗ рд╣реИ рдЪрд╛рд╣реЗ рдИрд╢ рднрдХреНрддрд┐,рдкрд╛рдарди,рд▓реЗрдЦрди, рдХрд▓рд╛, рд╕рдВрдЧреАрдд рдпрд╛ рдЕрдиреНрдп рдХрд┐рд╕реА рдорд╛рдзреНрдпрдо рд╕реЗ рддрдм рд╣рдо рд╡рд┐рдЪрд╛рд░реЛ рдХреЗ рдЬрд╛рд▓ рд╕реЗ рджреВрд░ рд╣реЛрдиреЗ рд▓рдЧрддреЗ рд╣реИрдВ рдФрд░ рдкреНрд░рд╛рдкреНрдд рд╣реЛрддреА рд╣реИ рд╡рд╣ рдЕрд╡рд╕реНрдерд╛ рдЬрд┐рд╕рдореЗрдВ рд╣рдо рдШрдЯрдирд╛рдУ рдХреЛ рдЙрдирдХреЗ рд╡рд╛рд╕реНрддрд╡рд┐рдХ рд╕реНрд╡рд░реВрдк рдореЗ рджреЗрдЦрдиреЗ рдореЗрдВ рд╕рдХреНрд╖рдо рд╣реЛ рдЬрд╛рддреЗ рд╣реИрдВ рдПрд╡рдВ рдмрд╣реБрдд рдЖрд╕рд╛рдиреА рд╕реЗ рдШрдЯрдирд╛рдУ рдХреЗ рдЬрд╡рд╛рдм рд╣рдореЗ рдкреНрд░рд╛рдкреНрдд рд╣реЛрдиреЗ рд▓рдЧрддреЗ рд╣реИ ред рдЬреАрд╡рди рдЖрдирдВрдж рдмрди рдЬрд╛рддрд╛ рд╣реИ ред рдРрд╕рд╛ рдореЗрд░рд╛ рдорд╛рдирдирд╛ рд╣реИ ред рдЦреБрд╢ рд░рд╣реЛ ред
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It’s excellent integral approach to find himself. Both chilling and cerebral, “Life” has its fair share of enhanced moments which has a hefty doses of humanity even as it lovingly embraces science in ways and still grounded enough for non-scientific lay people. Very well expression keep on writing
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To be honest, I found the images more relatable to life and truth than the text. They also relate to the rest of the text as well. You must be making a wonderful effort in finding such templates. I mean they are surely not random motivational quotes. Loved it.
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Thank you тШ║
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Be yourself Lubhita and we love the way you are. Very well written and keep on writing!ЁЯШН
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Thank you JijaЁЯШШ
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Nice
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